my home

I moved out again.

This time around, I'm staying with my parents.

Yeah, moved out from that little  apartment and back into the old huge home sweet home.

I think I have stayed so much apart from my family, and I could sense the  awkwardness of it when I reached home.

The truth is, I could not survive the loneliness.

Back at home, the one thing that I enjoy is playing maid.

Thank god house cleaning is therapeutic. But too much of it makes me sick and restless.

and restlessness is scary. There are times when I I woke up late at night and saw strangers walking around the compound/ Yeah, I'm not making this up. I'm just not too quick too shout for help. Sometimes I'm trying to get used to it, although I still can't.

Home sweet home as they say.

Yeah, this house reminded me of my non-tadika life, playing mud during the rainy days, waiting patiently for my family to come home when I was left alone, and how much the sense of loneliness have somehow helped me to discover the beauty of being artistic, naive and independent.

Nothing much had changed over the course of 20 years we lived here.

But I wish to say  goodbye to the lonely life. and allow myself to enjoy the stay.

Comments

[Jazzy]

hi there, Staying with family is always the best. Nothing can take that away from you. Stay with family while you still can because once you're married, some hard decisions need to be considered when you end up happy but a little bit sad......

Luv u era,